All that I need.

Last fall, as our pastor preached on John 10 he made the comment, "Being a forever sheep in the Shepherd's pasture is all I want." That phrase has really stuck with me and gotten me thinking. What does it mean for Jesus, or being with Him, to be ALL I want? How is that realistically possible? What does that look like, lived out in a person's life? I've been a Christian a long time. I've sung the words, "You are my all in all" and "All that I need is you, Jesus" but is it true? Do I really believe it? As I was thinking through this, I had to say honestly that I wanted a lot of things - a lot of good things - AND Jesus! But pastor had shown us from the text in John 10 that ALL we should want is to be forever sheep in the Shepherd's pasture. What does that mean?

The first thing I decided to do was to set aside some significant time to spend with the Lord and to search His Word. So I committed Timothy's nap time for this end - all of his nap time - for at least a week. If you are the mother of a toddler you know how very important this time of the day is for getting things done. Never the less, I decided to give it up in my search to understand what it means to only want Jesus. I realized that the closest I'd ever come to experiencing that had been in college when I spent much more time with Him. But since getting married and then children... how could I only want Him when I have so many other responsibilities!?